On Hold Since 1993 - 19 Lyrics

On Hold Since 1993 – 19 Lyrics

My bother is 16,
He drives and has a stable job,
I’m 19,
And once the spotlight turned away from me,
They all saw me for underachiever,
Because all I ever talked about was records,
Collecting and maybe one day putting out a record,
But sometimes I wish that day would never come,
Because,
All my friends would laugh at me,
And shed to pieces everything that I’ve become,
I’ve become myself,
Now I’m by myself,
Just a prediction not an action,
Looked over at the calender,
Noticed the months stepped on the pedal and my belt is what I fastened,
Waiting to crash it burn,

It seems like,
Everybody’s got their whole lives mapped out,
I just wanna be busy so when I clock out,
I’m not know as the kindergarden dropout,

But believe me,
I’m trying,
I’m trying,
Every day when I shoot for stars,
I come up short,
Then life swoops in,
Cue the theme music,
Mockery wasn’t enough fun for him,
How long can resist before selling my soul to a vampire job?
Taking the same route most do,
Trust me,
I wanna do better,
But never again will I become a slave to classroom seats,
After hearing that,
My father’s eyes would then remind me,
About how disappointing I am,
Until my wallet is no longer hungry,

But I am what I am,
Nothing I’m suppose to be,
But my dreams will surly die if i become what I need to be,
Exhausted from this tug of war that’s lasted for so long,
If lonely are the brave,
Then,

I’ll be that young boy figuring out things about life,
And writing songs about them,
I’ll no longer need to convince them that,
I’m just a young boy figuring out things about life,
And writing songs about them,
I’ll no longer need to convince them,
That this is not just any instrumental,
Only a glimpse of my potential,
That this is not just any instrumental,
Only a glimpse of my potential,
Potential,